I am a planner. I like to organize, write my lists and get things ready. When I leave the house in the morning, I like to make a clean getaway with the things I need for the day neatly packaged the night before.
So how does this happen? Every year at the last week of school, I suddenly feel overwhelmed that I have not planned enough for the summer.
Summer vacation lasts so long here! I detest the idea of letting the kids waste away in front of a TV...so I plan things. I plan our outings, our museum visits, our outdoor adventures and sports. I like to have an idea of where to begin each week.
I also look at my garden and every single year, I wish I had done more. Every year I feel a sense of tremendous urgency to add a few more things before it gets too hot.
This year is no different.
Yes, I could make the excuse that we have had so much extra going on this year, but really, it is the same thing.
I have not had a garage sale yet. That bothers me as I am trying to greatly reduce the clutter and extras that we have. If I want to stick with my goal of moving, I really need to get more stuff out of this house.
So, just like every other year, I will begin my mad dash. I will plan and order more supplies for the summer. I will plant a few extras and work like crazy to keep them alive before the real heat of the summer. I will go through the arduous and most hated task of picking through thousands of belongings and deciding their fate. Stay? Go? Garbage? And get it done.
By the middle of June, this will all be a memory that I have forgotten. By the middle of June, I usually have all of this completed and I am just "living" again. I glance at my calendar, check the weather and follow my plans.
For better or worse, I like my life this way. I even have a place penciled into my calendar to watch for back to school sales. I also have notes made at the beginning of each month for annual deadlines for contests and other fun education things. It makes me happy.
Yes, when I was younger, I was living more freely. I did what I wanted when I wanted. I don't know exactly when that changed, but I can tell you that life without my calendar of notes terrifies me.
I know that I would still remember to pay the bills, I would still take my children to events and probably sign them up for sports, but somehow seeing my notes makes it all easier.
I looked at my sparse calendar today. I have one item each week. I will fill in at least two more each week and then I will be filled with relief. Some things are taken care of. I work, they have committments also. We have a zoo membership that we use when the weather is right. That membership is a handy fill-in.
Here we are. It is the last week of school and we have no idea what we will do next week.
Something tells me we will figure it all out.
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