His Eye in on.... ME

   I keep playing one particular song when I am at a computer, whether at work or at home...

    It is, "His Eye is on the Sparrow", by Civilla D. Martin and Charles H. Gabriel.

   Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,
   Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heaven and home,
   When Jesus is my portion? My constant friend is He:
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

     Chorus:

I sing because I'm happy,

I sing because I'm free,

For His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me.

    Specifically, I love to hear Lauren Hill sing this song. I often belt it out in the car. I have loved this song the first time I heard it.

     I know. I have lived my life preparing. I have always been doing things. I was never the lazy grasshopper in the story. I was one of the busy ants.

      Yet this story is based on the story of God's world. It is about the verses where people are reminded that the birds do not work hard in the fields. They do not grow their food, nor do they work to preserve and store their foods. God simply provides what they need, and they are just lowly birds...not nearly as precious as we are.

     We are precious. We are loved. We were not put on this earth to merely suffer.

     Don't get me wrong. I remember my friend's play. There are people in what may seem very lowly positions in this world who are still filled with faith. So I asked my boss last week if he thought there was a chance that God wanted me to push a buggy downtown.

      Yes, I sometimes am afraid. Yes, sometimes I look to others to reassure me what I know must be true. Thankfully, my current boss happens to be a Pastor.

       Everywhere I turn, there are reminders that I am loved. Everywhere I go I am reminded that right now, I am not to worry about things of no consequence. Right now, there is enough. There is enough for me to do to not spiral in to the pit of despair. There is enough food to feed my family. There are enough reminders that I only have to face one step at a time.

      Right now we are doing just that. We are simply taking one step at a time. We can do no more.

      I was told last week that I still need to plan for the future.

      Yes, I understand that I still have my children's future to plan for. I understand that I still need my goals.

       Those can wait right now. They will be there again when I am ready. Right now I have enough.

      I think this song is so important to me right now because it tells me that I count. My tiny, lowly, unworthy self matters too.

     Why should I feel discouraged?

     Why should the shadows come???

     Why should my heart feel lonely???? 

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Beautiful